Hi everyone.
I was trying to think of a snappy title for my diary, but I'm keeping it simple. I'm Emma, 28. Living in Ireland. I have been here in various guises over the years, and now I'm back again for more madness. I always find myself back in this forum, and I've come to the realisation that maybe I need somewhere just to talk about food and weight loss and eating and all of the joy and pain and sadness it has brought to my life over the last number of years. Such a simple thing that one has the ability to let take over completely.
Anyway, some background. By Christmas last year, I was the heaviest I had ever been at 14 stone. I joined a fitness group in January, and with them, I lost a stone. I weighed myself yesterday, and I am 12 stone 13.2 pounds, with a BMI of 26.9. While it is such a relief to no longer be in the obese category, obviously, I am still quite overweight. My natural weight is probably 11 stone. 2 stone doesn't seem that bad, but I haven't been able to do anything about it in years, and I feel like my youth is running out, and I don't want to eventually get my dream body only to find my face doesn't match it anymore.
The scary thing for me is that what I used to do with food, I have started doing with cigarettes and alcohol, and that is definitely the fast track to ruining your life.
So, I am here, looking for help, support, and somewhere to go to unleash my anxieties and emotions. Tomorrow is my 'official' start date with my exercise plan kicking in, but I'm trying to get the ball rolling today. I have quit drinking and smoking as of now. It's sad, but just writing the words makes me want to run to the shop for a packet of smokes. I'm starting with a week off them, then will see how I feel from there. Same with alcohol - one week. Then I'll be at a festival, but I have very little money, so hopefully it will just be a few beers, as opposed to beers, wine, vodka, shots, basically trying to ingest as much poison as I can in a 5-hour period. I am really serious about this. I don't want it to get to the stage where I won't even be able to have champagne at my own wedding. But I'm getting sidetracked. Back to today.
I woke up really early this morning, surprisingly. I had a slice of brown bread with banana and peanut butter and a cup of coffee with lots of milk. I plan on having another slice of bread with the rest of the banana in a while, and cook myself a big dinner of chicken with vegetable chilli later. Is chicken chilli a thing? While I'm off work, I plan on trying to eat my dinner in the middle of the day instead of late at night. For some reason, I think this might help. I haven't decided what to have this evening yet, but I will be quite happy if I cook the chilli, cos it's so healthy.
I'll be back for more tomorrow, when 'day 1' begins!
I was trying to think of a snappy title for my diary, but I'm keeping it simple. I'm Emma, 28. Living in Ireland. I have been here in various guises over the years, and now I'm back again for more madness. I always find myself back in this forum, and I've come to the realisation that maybe I need somewhere just to talk about food and weight loss and eating and all of the joy and pain and sadness it has brought to my life over the last number of years. Such a simple thing that one has the ability to let take over completely.
Anyway, some background. By Christmas last year, I was the heaviest I had ever been at 14 stone. I joined a fitness group in January, and with them, I lost a stone. I weighed myself yesterday, and I am 12 stone 13.2 pounds, with a BMI of 26.9. While it is such a relief to no longer be in the obese category, obviously, I am still quite overweight. My natural weight is probably 11 stone. 2 stone doesn't seem that bad, but I haven't been able to do anything about it in years, and I feel like my youth is running out, and I don't want to eventually get my dream body only to find my face doesn't match it anymore.
The scary thing for me is that what I used to do with food, I have started doing with cigarettes and alcohol, and that is definitely the fast track to ruining your life.
So, I am here, looking for help, support, and somewhere to go to unleash my anxieties and emotions. Tomorrow is my 'official' start date with my exercise plan kicking in, but I'm trying to get the ball rolling today. I have quit drinking and smoking as of now. It's sad, but just writing the words makes me want to run to the shop for a packet of smokes. I'm starting with a week off them, then will see how I feel from there. Same with alcohol - one week. Then I'll be at a festival, but I have very little money, so hopefully it will just be a few beers, as opposed to beers, wine, vodka, shots, basically trying to ingest as much poison as I can in a 5-hour period. I am really serious about this. I don't want it to get to the stage where I won't even be able to have champagne at my own wedding. But I'm getting sidetracked. Back to today.
I woke up really early this morning, surprisingly. I had a slice of brown bread with banana and peanut butter and a cup of coffee with lots of milk. I plan on having another slice of bread with the rest of the banana in a while, and cook myself a big dinner of chicken with vegetable chilli later. Is chicken chilli a thing? While I'm off work, I plan on trying to eat my dinner in the middle of the day instead of late at night. For some reason, I think this might help. I haven't decided what to have this evening yet, but I will be quite happy if I cook the chilli, cos it's so healthy.
I'll be back for more tomorrow, when 'day 1' begins!
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