Where do I begin... Guess it starts with motivation.

I'm new to all of this and hesitant to even post. I'm not one for putting my problems on someone else. Esp strangers. In fact I'm used to the opposite I will listen to anyone and try to help. Anyway here goes. A lil about me I'm 27 a firefighter (that's where my selflessness comes from) from nj. I'm stuck in a rut and kinda speeding here with no breaks. As the weeks pass it's getting harder to look at myself in the mirror. The problem I have is that I feel like I'm trapped in a body that's made of molasses. My mind has such big plans and ideas but I can't get my body to do it. Idk if that even makes sense. I'm just so tired from two jobs that I just make excuses. Anyway that's me in a nutshell. Don't be too harsh n thanks ahead of time.