I've Lost My Way in the Dark

Hello I Was Surfing the net looking for way out of the mess I've gotten my self into this time again.

I've been holding a YoYo weight style most of my Adult Life and its never felt normal to me as I was always very Athletic and firmly built.



I have always managed to lose weight but each time it becomes harder and harder.



This time I started at my Highest weight of 16st 9lb and got down to 12st 6lb but becoming a carer for my mother with the Emotional Strain has become tiring and I have had no extra strength to look after myself or think about what is happening to my body.



I know how to eat right and \exercise but its as if I have forgotten it all.

I have all the apparatus to carry out enough physical activity in or out of the House but again its as if I have forgotten how to start.



I can see the doorways but I cant open the doors, im in the dark its lonely and im scared.



While im here im getting Bigger and becoming more in danger of related diseases from my Wieght. I will be no good for my Mum or the rest of my Family if I stay here.



I just need a hand to get those doors open and remember how to live like that again.



I cant weigh myself as im to scared, but I know I need to.



I tell myself every Monday this week will be the week...but it just slides by ...not unnoticed as I beat myself up everyday for not doing anything about it.



Would someone like to join me and help me get started i'm not usually one who needs a push for anything in life but I real am broken down in the Darkest Path I could imagine at my Time in life. First things First I need to get my self weighed up i must be at least 14 1/2 Stone now and I want to be 13 Minimum.



SO 1 and half Stone to lose.



Any takers Please let me know :) and Thank You for reading my Cry for help. :waving: