i can see a rainbow

Hi .My name is Jessica i am nearlly 33 years old and a mother of a 5year old boy!Today i weigh 100,6 kg's.

A couple of years ago i managed to loose mch weight and got down to nearlly 75 kg's,feeling great.Then i just let go and balloned up to my current weight.

I knew i was fat again,i stoped getting compliments from others and they where replaced again with |you must go on a diet|

I actually felt so great at 78 kg\s that i didnt want to loose anymore weight////

Crazy ?Wow cant wait for that feeling to come again!

I am dealling with a lot a lot a lot of stresfull situations ,generally this year has been only bad for me/us.It was NOT the reason for me getting this fat again,i had already put on so much before the start of this year.But i do belive it is the reason i just cant get myself starded on a healthy eating plan.

I used to go running thanks to this forum.I mananged to run for 30 minutes straight and i loved it.now i feel to heavy and teribble to go outside and do that.I must loose at least 10 kg's before attempting that.

i have a stationery bike and a little stepper here at home.I think i shall start with these.

I need to be strict about coming on here,not letting go,i need to feel that this is my base.Something really steady.

This journey is not just about me loosing weight.ITs about trying to stay positive and strong through difficult situations.Its about managing stress.its about my life change towards something better.Life is too short to be angry.I wont be angry with myself for my weight gain.I will try to welcome a new change in my life starting from today.

I ll be logging in at night when my food is finished for the day.

Lots of love to al you out there trying for a better you!